Wake Me Up

"Feeling my way through the darkness guided by a beating heart 

I can’t tell where the journey will end but I know where to start. 

They tell me I’m too young to understand, say I’m caught up in a dream

and life will past me by if I don’t open up my eyes and that’s fine by me

so wake me up when it’s all over, when I’m wiser and I’m older, 

all this time I was fighting myself and I didn’t know I was lost. 

So wake me up when its all over, when I’m wiser and I’m older

all this time I was finding myself and I didn’t know I lost.

I’ve tired caring the weight of the world but I only have two hands,

I hope get a chance to travel the world but I don’t have any plans, 

I wish I could stay forever this young not afraid to close my eyes,

life’s a game made for everyone and love is a prize”

‎”You add up all the losses that death will cost you (your family, your job, your dream retirement, the friends you leave behind, your favorite bodily pleasures) — you add up all these losses, and then you replace them only with death and Christ — if when you do that you joyfully say, gain!, then Christ is magnified in your dying. Christ is most magnified in your death, when you are so satisfied in Christ, that losing everything and getting only Christ is called gain.”
John Piper
Problem
  • Oprah walked away from orthodox Christianity when she was about 27 because of the biblical teaching that God is Jealous — he demands that he and no one else get our highest allegiance and affection. It didn’t sound loving to her.
  • Brad Pitt turned away from his boyhood faith, he says, because God says, “You have to say that I’m the best… . It seemed to be about ego.”
  • C. S. Lewis, before he became a Christian, complained that God’s demand to be praised sounded like “a vain woman who wants compliments.”
Answer
  • No Oprah, if God were not jealous for all your affections, he would be indifferent to your final misery.
  • No Brad Pitt, if God didn’t demand that you see him as the best, he wouldn’t care about your supreme happiness.
  • No Mr. Lewis, God is not vain in demanding your praise. This is his highest virtue, and your highest joy.

Christian Hedonism says, God is most glorified in you when you are most satisfied in him. 

From John Piper’s sermon: http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/sermons/god-is-most-glorified-in-us-when-we-are-most-satisfied-in-him

Better lose all than lose love. He wins who keeps that supreme. He loses who says one bitter word, writes one selfish line, or moves one inch out of the love of God and his brother… We hurt the faith more by hardness and self-will and unbrotherly behavior than by confused opinions or false definitions.
John Clifford

You’re Less Than Half a Man

Yellow Belly

You were built for blessing but you only make them bleed, but you don’t care. 

And bruises are but shadows of the blackness that you breed, but you don’t care.

The light that’s left inside their eyes is darkened day by day, but you don’t care.

Your presence pulls the color from the world ‘till all is grey, but you don’t care.

No, you don’t ‘cause you are less than half a man, yellow belly and crimson hands. 

You will one day reap your reckoning and maybe then you’ll understand. 

Your hands were made to comfort, though they only conjure fear, but you don’t care.

 And she’s in the closet praying, “Lord, please get me out of here,” but you don’t care.

 What mercy have they known from you, to ask that it be shown to you?

Secret of the Easy Yoke

i can hear the church bells ringing
they pealed aloud your praise
the members faces were smiling
with their hands out stretched to shake
it’s true they did not move me
my heart was hard and tired
their perfect fire annoyed me
i could not find you anywhere

could someone please tell me the story
of sinners ransomed from the fall
i still have never seen you
and some days i don’t love you at all

the devoted were wearing bracelets
to remind them why they came
some concrete motivation
when the abstract could not do the same
but if all that’s left is duty
i’m falling on my sword
at least then i would not serve
an unseen distant lord

someone please tell me the story
of sinners ransomed from the fall
i still have never seen you
and some days i don’t love you at all

if this is only a test
i hope that i’m passing
cause i’m losing steam
and i still want to trust you

peace be still…


Holding Makenna…Can’t wait to be a father someday

Holding Makenna…Can’t wait to be a father someday

Russia video from my ISP trip in 2009. There’s even a book that’s in works of being published of this amazing trip and all the adventures that took place. 

Who’s Prevailing?

(Picture taken by me in Cesara Philippi, Israel)

We sometimes forget that Jesus said that “I will build my church, and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it” (Matt. 16:18 ESV), but it’s amazing that sometimes that battle is within the body rather than against hell.

It’s no wonder that we have an enemy that prowls like a roaring lion, who seeks to devour us (1 Pet. 5:8), and comes after us to cause quarrels among us. He will use disagreements to stir up anger and hatred towards one another. And as long as there is tension within the body Satan is prevailing.

I am reminded of how we ought to be as I read passages in Ephesians where Paul says to the church, “I… urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace” (Eph. 4:1-3 ESV).

Shame on us that we allow conflicts to happen to the bride of Christ instead of the picture that Paul has painted in the verse above! 

Despite whatever disputes or even deep pains caused by another, we have to remember that Jesus Christ forgave us of ALL our sins! Which the punishment should have been Hell! Instead, God redeemed us through the cross and all has been forgiven because of the love of God… are we then above God to not forgive others and love them? The church must prevail against hell and not Satan prevailing against us.

Dan Perez

"The Weight" by Thrice
There’s many who’ll tell you they’ll give you their love,But when they say “give” they mean “take”.They hang ‘round just like vultures ‘til push comes to shoveAnd take flight when the earth starts to shake.Someone may say that they’ll always be trueThen slip out the door ‘fore the dawn,But I won’t leave you hanging on.Another may stay ‘til they find someone newThen before you know they’ll be gone,But I won’t leave you hanging on.No, I won’t won’t be that someone.And come what may, I won’t abandon you or leave you behind,Because love is a loyalty sworn, not a burning for a moment.Come what may, I will be standing right here by your side,I won’t run away, though the storm’s getting worse and there’s no end in sight.Some talk of destiny, others of fate,But soon they’ll be saying goodbye,But I won’t leave you high and dry.'Cause a ring don’t mean nothing if you can’t haul the weightAnd some of them won’t even try,But I won’t leave you high and dry.I won’t leave you wondering why.And come what may, I won’t abandon you or leave you behind,Because love is a loyalty sworn, not a burning for a moment.Come what may, I will be standing right here by your side,I won’t run away, though the storm’s getting worse and there’s no end in sight.And storms will surely come,But true love is a choice you must make and you are the one.That I have set my heart to chooseAs long as I live, I swear I’ll see this through.Come what may, I won’t abandon you or leave you behind,Because love is a loyalty sworn, not a burning for a moment.Come what may, I will be standing right here by your side,I won’t run away, though the storm’s getting worse and I see no end.Come what may, I won’t abandon you or leave you behind,Because love is a loyalty sworn, not a burning for a moment.Come what may, I will be standing right here by your side,I won’t run away, though the storm’s getting worse and there’s no end in sight.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nuuTRpGCKEk

"The Weight" by Thrice

There’s many who’ll tell you they’ll give you their love,
But when they say “give” they mean “take”.
They hang ‘round just like vultures ‘til push comes to shove
And take flight when the earth starts to shake.

Someone may say that they’ll always be true
Then slip out the door ‘fore the dawn,
But I won’t leave you hanging on.

Another may stay ‘til they find someone new
Then before you know they’ll be gone,
But I won’t leave you hanging on.

No, I won’t won’t be that someone.

And come what may, I won’t abandon you or leave you behind,
Because love is a loyalty sworn, not a burning for a moment.
Come what may, I will be standing right here by your side,
I won’t run away, though the storm’s getting worse and there’s no end in sight.

Some talk of destiny, others of fate,
But soon they’ll be saying goodbye,
But I won’t leave you high and dry.

'Cause a ring don’t mean nothing if you can’t haul the weight
And some of them won’t even try,
But I won’t leave you high and dry.

I won’t leave you wondering why.

And come what may, I won’t abandon you or leave you behind,
Because love is a loyalty sworn, not a burning for a moment.
Come what may, I will be standing right here by your side,
I won’t run away, though the storm’s getting worse and there’s no end in sight.

And storms will surely come,
But true love is a choice you must make and you are the one.
That I have set my heart to choose
As long as I live, I swear I’ll see this through.

Come what may, I won’t abandon you or leave you behind,
Because love is a loyalty sworn, not a burning for a moment.
Come what may, I will be standing right here by your side,
I won’t run away, though the storm’s getting worse and I see no end.

Come what may, I won’t abandon you or leave you behind,
Because love is a loyalty sworn, not a burning for a moment.
Come what may, I will be standing right here by your side,
I won’t run away, though the storm’s getting worse and there’s no end in sight.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nuuTRpGCKEk